Tricky weekend
It has been a challenging weekend for me on a range of levels. I am struggling with a number of things. I have been
feeling ok but get hit with feelings of intense fatigue and mild anxiety at what appears to be at random throughout the day, although more pronounced mid to late afternoons.
Yesterday was very tricky and so far today has been a bit up and down. I put myself to bed at 7.30pm last night and slept about 12 hours which was a heap for me. This morning the family and I all watched Lily run cross country and then we we out for breakfast. Lily ran well, was first for her club and fourth over all.
The house is mine this afternoon as the twins are at a basketball clinic (so much sport) and Petra and Siena are out doing Mother/daughter things. I am tracking the credit card! Joke.
I love the quiet.
I am preparing a presentation as part of a bid for this Wednesday. I have to admit I am not enjoying doing that today but it has to be done (hence the distraction of writing this blog entry. Like a teenager cleaning their room during exam week).
It’s a grind, not flowing, must be my brain. Some of the neural connections appear to be misfiring or the connection is simply lost!
Although thankful of my time off to deal with this cancer I think I have been a little unlucky with two of my major clients going to tender during the period of my absence (maybe that says something). At least the second one is timed a little better in relation to my chemo cycles.
Tonight we have people over for dinner but I will excuse myself pretty early I think.
This coming week I believe will test me a bit as I will work Monday, all day Tuesday and then lead the bid on Wednesday. Interesting to see how I cope and pull up physically and mentally.
It is what it is.
My Unplanned Sabbatical 