Another hectic day. I am struggling to keep up with the pace set by the Duchini household this week. Strange as usually I am better at this stage of the month. Not so this month. Not feeling healthy.
I have not been able to sleep well. Restless mind. Last night was terrible as I was still awake at 3.00 am. Friday night not much better. So I will take a little something tonight to push me over the edge.
We left Portsea this afternoon and returned home. It was a good short change of scenery. The girls really enjoyed it and I hope our Italian guest did as well. Not particularly expressive is our 20 year old lodger. That may change with more time with us.
A good friend suggested that at 20 she maybe more interested in access to Wifi, clubs, pubs, sex and drugs than spending time with a middle aged family and the splendor of the Port Nepean National Park. It’s possible.
Anyway I will stay hopeful. From my perspective it feels a bit like another smiling dependent, maybe that’s a bit harsh. Blame the lack of sleep and next Thursday.
Three full days left before my last chemo session. I hope to enjoy them. Feeling both anxious and positive. I know I will hate the post chemo period with passion but I hope that it will be finally over and that is a very good thing. Six months of treatment has been pretty punishing on me physically, mentally, my family and my life. So will be pleased to be clear of it.
Starting to look to the future and returning to a more normal life. Time will tell.
Time to watch the tour and take a pill.